I am a zagnut !!

Yes just like the candy bar today my body is getting used to being back on my psych meds properly after missing 4 doses last week.
I have struggled with depression since I was a kid but wasn't diagnosed until I was 18 after my first suicidal warnings which my parents and psychologist recognized fairly quickly.....It wasn't until 2007 when I was diagnosed as Bi Polar/Manic depression after I became homicidal and got scared  called the cops on myself.

After some discussion it was decided the hospital was the best place for me. I stayed for 5 days but was no where ready to come home but they released me anyway.....and six weeks later I had another nervous breakdown and wound up in a different hospital  this time for 9 days.

I can't explain the circumstances around these nervous breakdowns but God knows and has brought me through them and has strengthened me as well as most of the relationships in my family....there is one who remains a stray but I pray for them every day..

One thing that I have to not let other non professionals drive me nuts trying to diagnose me themselves or give me fake healing "recipe's guarenteed to heal you"

I like to call myself a little zag nut because I think of a zig zag when my mania hits.

I am on six different meds for depression and it gets confusing sometimes.....but I have a good husband who has helped me out and I may be getting a nurse that way I won't take too many or too little.

Well tomorrow I go to Gathering Hope House I love it there .

I'm back

I don't know how many followers I will get but I am going to post my thoughts, poems and prayers and see what happens.....I don't do well with politics so if you want a political blog then this is not the blog you want to follow
Yes I am a christian and I don't attend "Church On The Rise " anymore  I now attend a baptist church with a thriving special needs ministry called "Gems and Jewells" that church is Victory Baptist Temple and I love it there.
I used to go to Victory years ago before the kids were born but my husband and I left for unexplainable reasons.
We have been in and out of Baptist and Pentecostal/Non Denom churches for the Past 15years and are deeply saddened at the fact that there aren't that many churches out there  with special needs ministries.

At this point if it wasn't for Victory Baptist at least my daughter and I would not get to go....my son is not read for "Gems and Jewells " yet he gets overstimulated and then gets combative......needless to say I feel at home at"VBT"