Yes my family all four of us are sneezing and all that stuff that comes with colds and sinus infections ...tis the season. I have to miss church again and I hate that but such is life.
Church is important to me for many reasons.......it helps me in my spiritual walk with Christ,gives me a chance to fellowship with others.and so much more.
Some have found church boring and I have been there at times.......not in my current church mind you but in others. The trick is finding one thing you believe in and holding on to it and if a Christian asking yourself does this line up with the word of God.
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Friday, October 4, 2013
Daily musing
Well I am going to keep this one short as I am feeling yucky today, But I am too manic and excited about all the work and things I accomplished today it's been a long time since I felt like I've accomplished something and I am greatful that I am able to get enough energy to do my chores.
My husband Sean is a great helper around the house and I am shameful to say often out does me with the house work. I just work slower than he does and when my depression hits it's a struggle for him to keep me from laying down and giving up.
It's hard to clean when you have children even harder when they are autistic or special needs . .
Speaking of special needs it's that time of night where my daughter gets overstimulated and fussy this can be exasperating as she whines and cries often pushing her brother into violent melt downs
That why my husband finally went out and got her head phones as she is sensitive too much noise. She loves her head phones and even wore them to bed last night.
Well I better go for now .
Oh for anyone who sees this and prayers there is a slight possibility that I might get to go and speak about my mental illness at a local college .. I really want to do this and if it's Gods will he will work it out.
My husband Sean is a great helper around the house and I am shameful to say often out does me with the house work. I just work slower than he does and when my depression hits it's a struggle for him to keep me from laying down and giving up.
It's hard to clean when you have children even harder when they are autistic or special needs . .
Speaking of special needs it's that time of night where my daughter gets overstimulated and fussy this can be exasperating as she whines and cries often pushing her brother into violent melt downs
That why my husband finally went out and got her head phones as she is sensitive too much noise. She loves her head phones and even wore them to bed last night.
Well I better go for now .
Oh for anyone who sees this and prayers there is a slight possibility that I might get to go and speak about my mental illness at a local college .. I really want to do this and if it's Gods will he will work it out.
Monday, September 30, 2013
I am a zagnut !!
Yes just like the candy bar today my body is getting used to being back on my psych meds properly after missing 4 doses last week.
I have struggled with depression since I was a kid but wasn't diagnosed until I was 18 after my first suicidal warnings which my parents and psychologist recognized fairly quickly.....It wasn't until 2007 when I was diagnosed as Bi Polar/Manic depression after I became homicidal and got scared called the cops on myself.
After some discussion it was decided the hospital was the best place for me. I stayed for 5 days but was no where ready to come home but they released me anyway.....and six weeks later I had another nervous breakdown and wound up in a different hospital this time for 9 days.
I can't explain the circumstances around these nervous breakdowns but God knows and has brought me through them and has strengthened me as well as most of the relationships in my family....there is one who remains a stray but I pray for them every day..
One thing that I have to not let other non professionals drive me nuts trying to diagnose me themselves or give me fake healing "recipe's guarenteed to heal you"
I like to call myself a little zag nut because I think of a zig zag when my mania hits.
I am on six different meds for depression and it gets confusing sometimes.....but I have a good husband who has helped me out and I may be getting a nurse that way I won't take too many or too little.
Well tomorrow I go to Gathering Hope House I love it there .
I have struggled with depression since I was a kid but wasn't diagnosed until I was 18 after my first suicidal warnings which my parents and psychologist recognized fairly quickly.....It wasn't until 2007 when I was diagnosed as Bi Polar/Manic depression after I became homicidal and got scared called the cops on myself.
After some discussion it was decided the hospital was the best place for me. I stayed for 5 days but was no where ready to come home but they released me anyway.....and six weeks later I had another nervous breakdown and wound up in a different hospital this time for 9 days.
I can't explain the circumstances around these nervous breakdowns but God knows and has brought me through them and has strengthened me as well as most of the relationships in my family....there is one who remains a stray but I pray for them every day..
One thing that I have to not let other non professionals drive me nuts trying to diagnose me themselves or give me fake healing "recipe's guarenteed to heal you"
I like to call myself a little zag nut because I think of a zig zag when my mania hits.
I am on six different meds for depression and it gets confusing sometimes.....but I have a good husband who has helped me out and I may be getting a nurse that way I won't take too many or too little.
Well tomorrow I go to Gathering Hope House I love it there .
Sunday, September 29, 2013
I'm back
I don't know how many followers I will get but I am going to post my thoughts, poems and prayers and see what happens.....I don't do well with politics so if you want a political blog then this is not the blog you want to follow
Yes I am a christian and I don't attend "Church On The Rise " anymore I now attend a baptist church with a thriving special needs ministry called "Gems and Jewells" that church is Victory Baptist Temple and I love it there.
I used to go to Victory years ago before the kids were born but my husband and I left for unexplainable reasons.
We have been in and out of Baptist and Pentecostal/Non Denom churches for the Past 15years and are deeply saddened at the fact that there aren't that many churches out there with special needs ministries.
At this point if it wasn't for Victory Baptist at least my daughter and I would not get to go....my son is not read for "Gems and Jewells " yet he gets overstimulated and then gets combative......needless to say I feel at home at"VBT"
Yes I am a christian and I don't attend "Church On The Rise " anymore I now attend a baptist church with a thriving special needs ministry called "Gems and Jewells" that church is Victory Baptist Temple and I love it there.
I used to go to Victory years ago before the kids were born but my husband and I left for unexplainable reasons.
We have been in and out of Baptist and Pentecostal/Non Denom churches for the Past 15years and are deeply saddened at the fact that there aren't that many churches out there with special needs ministries.
At this point if it wasn't for Victory Baptist at least my daughter and I would not get to go....my son is not read for "Gems and Jewells " yet he gets overstimulated and then gets combative......needless to say I feel at home at"VBT"
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