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My Dearest Little Children

My Precious little ones
You are such a treasure from heaven above
You were given to us to cherish and to love

I am truely thank full for the special gifts you are
No other child can take the place of you.

When Jesus brought you too us
We were filled with wonder an awe

As we counted your little fingers and
cuddled you so tight
Your precious beautiful eyes and face
reminded us of Gods abiding grace

Little did we realize what trials lie ahead
As we stroked your little curls
Then kissed your tiny head

You seemed to progress normally
until you were nearly two
We realized you were no longer talking
or doing things that children at two or three
do.

Our hearts were deeply saddened
When after a month turned into a
Year then into two.

When we finally heard the words
"Your child has autism"
The words wrung loud and clear

But I was in denial as I could not face
This daunting trial, or even shed a tear

The word Autism I could not hear
For my heart was filled with sorrow
Sadness and fear.
Until I realized Jesus was standing near

Oh Master,Saviour,Jesus,Lord
I finally cried out loud
I know that you are always with us

I just can't help but wonder

Would we ever hear the words "I love you "
From our precious childrens lips

Would we ever see them run and play
baseball and other games kids play
My heart was filled with wonder and dismay

Until I heard my Saviour say
"Hush my child listen to my voice
For I have made the right choice.
I chose you to be their voice"

Though it won't be easy these precious children
need you so.
I have a special plan for them you see and need
you to help me help them grow.

Give them lots of love and tender care and tell them
About me.
Though you may think they may not understand
Just leave that up to me.

For I know their thoughts and feelings they cannot express
To anyone but me.
I am their Heavenly Father you see
Creator of all things.

I have blessed them with a gift the world needs to see
A gift that will giv new life and set souls free.
If only you will trust me and give them to me.

My Saviour Lord and King
I give you everything
These children we will raise
and give you all the praise

Help me understand the hurting hearts
filled with uncertainty and fear

Who look upon my children as burdens
of doom and despair
Help me to love them with your perfect
love.
Show them these special children are gifts
from God above.
Who need tenderness and love
Before they are murdered and
Thrown away
They have a voice that we cannot hear
Calling and crying for life so dear

Lord help there dieing by millions each year
Help us show them we care

Laura M /Holly Hobbie

Gathering Hope

I got the privilege of  visiting a place called "Gathering Hope House " it is a place where mentally Ill people......like me get together play games ,do crafts,watch movies and all kinds of activities......they have a library a place for the homeless to do their laundry a computer room with computer classes and all kinds of fun activities.

It is a great place to go relax and be with people who struggle with mental illnesses such as.....Bi Polar/Manic deppression and boarderline personality disorder..

Gathering Hope House even houses some of the homeless. It has opened my eyes to the severity of mental illness and how often people judge us because they don't understand us.

My "art buddy " Brandon has a severe case of schizophrenia but is cogniscent enough to carry on full conversations.....He is one of the best artists I know and will draw whatever comes to his mind he drew me a picture of "Betty Boop"  and I recently saw a picture he drew of Jesus both breath takeing.,he very rarely makes mistakes when drawing.

We have a lady that I hear sing alot and she can hit notes that I can't.......Some may think it's deppressing going their and if you let it sometimes it can be. But if you chose to see us as people and our hidden talents and listen with your heart then you become comfortable quickly..

I was a little uneasy with one lady at first ......she walks around chatting to herself with a 2 litter of pop. in her hands.

Mental illness sucks but you can learn to live with it and not let it hold you hostage....It helps if you have a personal faith in God.

It never ceases

It never ceases to amaze me just how little churches in general are prepared for special needs children and even adults. Oh they may have an extra large bathroom stall with a hand rail attached to the wall but nothing else. It seems to me that alot of churches are more concerned about reaching the youth.........and theres nothing wrong with that , But why not the special needs people they need church just as much as we do?,

What are churches so affraid of that they can't start a ministry for the handicapped. there are only a small handful of churches in Ohio that have a ministry for the them and my church is one of them. "Church On The Rise does not meet my needs 100% but they meet the most important ones and one of them is a ministry for handicapped children.......it's brand new and small but unfortunatley the church doesn't give it as much attention as other ministries do.wihich frusterates the Director and us.

Hidden Treasures

This blog will mostly be dedicated to my Autistic children and other special needs children but occasionally I may ramble on about something else.
I am a proud momma of two autistic children whom I love very much.. Matthew is 11 and Rebecca is 9 they keep me very busy but I don't mind they are Gods gifts and we will raise them with his guidence..

I cannot believe how fast time flies it seems like only yesterday when they were born. I remember as a child wanting a Dugger size family and also adopt special needs children ,I even went as far as inventing an imaginary family 18 kids......3 adopted and 2 physically handicapped children. Yes I may be crazy but I love large families!.

I was only able to have two children due to an emergency hysterectomy 6 yrs ago. We can't afford to adopt and I am not healthy enough mentally or physically to have more children deffinately to old to have 18 kids LOL!.

I come from a family of  8 if you count step and half siblings. My mom comes from a family of 16 so I am familiar with large families.

But my small family keeps me busy there is no boring moment raising two autistic kids who are like toddlers in many ways.       I am blessed.